I really do. I love this time of completion, when we all reflect on what's happened to us over the year, what we've accomplished (or lack thereof), and how we've grown in just 365 days.
At the closing of this year, is also the closing of another important season in my life. For at the completion of the day, so will my fast be completed. Yes, the Lord has given me revelation, and also a date to go back to what I had taken a break from. You've probably figured out that day by now.
What He has taught me, don't be surprised, is not what I was expecting. Is God ever what we expect?
I was asking for an encounter with His presence, not unlike that which initially changed me. I was feeling lost, and wanted to just return to what was familiar and comfortable. I thought I was asking for something new, but what I was really doing was asking to be moved to a new level before I had finished my work on this one. Is it ever wrong to ask the Lord to fill you with His presence? No! And I did get into His beautiful presence more than a few times over this season (since November 15). But He knew what He wanted to teach me through this.
It can be expressed in a single word:
It's a verb; an action. God has told me that it's time to Do. It's time to work, and go.
I was in my room this past Saturday. I was so desperate for His word, for movement in my Spirit.
I was listening to Let it Rain by Misty Edwards, and I knew that I was ready to leave the wilderness; to see the Rain (that makes sense if you listen to the song.). God was telling me that the song would not end before I got my word. I was giddy with anticipation, singing this song, waiting for the Glory of Heaven to descend into my bedroom. Do you know what happened in the middle of that song?
My mom knocked on the door, came in and asked me if I was doing my schoolwork.
My first reaction? "Dang it! why now?"
My second reaction: "ooooh, that was it, wasn't it?"
I was supposed to be doing schoolwork that day.
I needed to go do what I am supposed to be doing.
I need to go do what I am called to be doing.
This doesn't just relate to my schoolwork.
It relates to my whole life.
Yes, my word was to stop asking for love and joy and more of His Spirit, and go out and give it
I was asking for more and more but what I need to do is go out and give it. I need to go fulfil my assignments that I am supposed to be doing.
So that's what I'm doing this year. I'm giving. Time, energy, love, everything. God is rapidly putting the plans into motion. I'm so excited for this coming year, and what He's going to do through me.
I'm excited to see growth, and manifestation.
"So my dear brothers and sisters, stand strong. Do not let anything move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your work in the Lord is never wasted."
1 Corinthians 15:58
~ Heather Rose
"But God's grace has made me what I am, and His grace to me was not wasted . . ." 1 Corinthians 15:10